In today’s society, we tend to conform to a lot of labels. I’ve went through a lot of them myself. While they help us finding our place in our society and help us understand who we are, often they end up blocking us or giving false excuses to some behaviors we may adopt.
Since December I’ve changed a lot of things in my life, removing some habits, cutting on things like alcohol, coffee, … After 2 months I’ve made a small check-up to see where I am now and where I’m heading to.
I remember talking with a friend about how unhappy I was and how I felt I was slowly dying for such a long time, expressing some bitterness. That’s when she told me ”but you had the choice, you could have left”.
Just as business tend to evolve thanks to failures and improvements, I strongly think that we tend to evolve through our mistakes, our errors and regrets. But I also strongly believe that not all errors are equal, and that in each of our lives, we’re making what I call some major formative mistake.
Some days ago, I finished Siddharta by Herman Hesse, a very strange and compelling book that immediately jumped into my life changing shelf of my library. One particular passage in this book hit me with the velocity of a full-speed train
It seems that nowadays a lot of people regret not being able to read more. So I’m writing this to give you some tips that I gathered along, hoping it may help you ;)
Last week I wasn’t able to write a single thing for this diary. While I did my best to keep a day-to-day one page diary, writing something longer was beyond my control. Because last week I lost someone very dear to me for reasons I still don’t understand and without being able to do a single thing to avoid it. Thus breaking multiple promises I did to myself for this beginning of year.
It’s funny how this simple thing has eluded me for so many years (and still eludes me from time to time). Something as simple as saying “no”,“I won’t”, “I can’t”. I’ve spent so many years running after time, saying yes all the time, abiding to things I didn’t want to do, investing energy I didn’t have, forcing myself to be someone I wasn’t or to do things that only pulled me down further.
2016 was quite a rollercoaster year on many parts. I’m grateful for several things that happened in my life, but I must admit that I let myself slip quite a bit while enjoying only the good things without taking some time to keep on improving myself. While in 2015 I succeeded at losing a lot of weight and establish a daily routine, I let myself slip during 2016, something I wanted to get back on.
So I’ve set up this blog again. Which might seems strange looking at how many times I’ve blogged, removed, blogged again, removed, … without finding any way to really ”get it”. Most of it had to do with the division between my professional and personal life that happened in the past, searching my way wasn’t easy so I went here and there.